…Gives Me Fever

Current mood:convalescing

i wish it were love, rather than some airborne flu virus stirred up by this miserably long rainy season, but i had my first fever in YEARS this week and it was worse than i remember.  the last night of fever [and there were 3] was delirium.  i kept imagining that there were 4 other people in the room and they were all espresso machine competitors.  but, in this day and age, having only 4 other persona to contend with means i ain’t got it so bad.

i had to change out of a sweat-soaked t-shirt twice during that night and i could never really tell if i was awake or asleep.  standing up, lying down, flailing my arms, mopping my brow –  i remember everything as though i imagined it.  it was hell.

when the morning came the sun did not.  it is still hidden behind clouds.  but when the bright grey morning appeared in the sky today i smiled and made a peggy lee joke and knew my fever was broken when i was able to laugh at how miserable it was.  i ate food for the first time in 2 days today.  mashed up potatoes and finely ground meat, real soft like old people eat, out of a red bowl with a small spoon.

it can’t rain all the time.


About Suhail Rafidi

Suhail Rafidi is a novelist and educator whose works explore the destiny of human values in a technological landscape. You can find him on Twitter, too, @shelldive.
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